I don’t know if that will help you or not…if you feel like it would than i would do it.  What we believe becomes are reality.  When you have had enough of the past running your present, you will choose to stay in the moment and let the past be the past…until then things will stay the same.  The past can not be changed…this is true…what can be changed is your perception of it and how you CHOOSE to live in today. The courage you seek is already inside you and always has been. Things are always changing whether you are paying attention to them or not.  Allow your heart to heal and your higher self to take you where you need to go.  The reason for the haunts of the past are only reasons to continue to beat yourself up. Allow yourself the freedom and beauty of healing and allow the past to be just that.  I am sending love and healing to you on your journey.  Remember you already have everything you need INSIDE you to transmute all negativity…you just have to choose to allow yourself to heal. 

I always find this to be helpful in the process of healing the past.  I repeat it many times over and over until it is accepted into my heart as well as my head! 

The Serenity Prayer by Reinhold Niebuhr 

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

The courage to change the things I can,

And the wisdom to know the difference.